I Smile when I pray

I smile when I pray,
Because I feel you smile too.
And when I shut my eyes I know
That I crawl to your feet,
Twisted and estranged
Broken from the inside out.

And I cry out, choked,
"Look what I have done to myself!
See the flesh torn,
And the bruises many,
And the blood I have shed?"

And of course you see.
You saw it coming,
And you let it happen,
You brought it to me.

Thank you.
You gave me this,
And I couldn't love you more.
And I smile when I pray,
As my tears seep into Heaven.
And my blood creates rain
To shelter my heart from sun.

"Look what I have done."
Is all that I can whisper,
And I smile,
Because you smile.
You touch my heart
And put it back together.